unrequited love

I loved my bestfriend for years.. but never got the guts to confess.
His unruly hair, unkempt clothes, he brushing his hair, rubbing his chin when he is concentrating.
I love everything about him.
May be I loved of idea of loving him I guess.
I followed him around like a lost puppy.
Attended the classes to get a glimpse of him even though the I hated the subject.
I longed for him to look at me like I was his center of universe.
I used to look at him through the windows in hopes of getting his attention.
But he have his eyes on someone else, someone who was better than me.
and I was left behind as his second choice.

Memories

Bottle of vodka,

memories of freedom,

First rain of monsoon.

Can’t go back to the days when we we’re holding onto each-other.

Meet me at the edge of the world.

Sing our favorite psalm together.

Tap your fingers on your heart.

Feel the gust of wind.

May be we can make memories that can survive for a whole life.

#darkdelinquent